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Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
3:09 pm
More random freewriting.
Just wrote this one up. Don't quite know what I think about it. Felt like writing it anyhow. :D

Deep inside this darkness all is safe. The nightmare cannot haunt me here. I’ve been sleeping here for so long. I finally contained myself. I sealed myself away. And here you are jabbing at me with a stick like a little kid. Back off. You don’t know what you’re doing…you don’t know what giant you’re about to wake up. Back off. This isn’t an ordinary monster you’re messing with. Stay out of this or you’ll get dragged under. BACK OFF. Don’t touch that lock. Keep your hands out of what you don’t understand. You’re blindly walking into this looking for treasure. Let me tell you; I’m no treasure. Step back. Get out while you can. I’ll drag you under like a riptide and shred you to bits. You’ll be crushed under my foot…turned to stone by a mere glance. I’m in this prison for a reason…I put myself here for reasons you can’t imagine. So back off before you let this storm loose.

Current Mood: content
Sunday, March 27th, 2005
11:18 pm
More stuff from this weekend. :D
Yay! I wrote some more! I may not be keeping up the daily basis...but I haven't abandoned the livejournal again at least. ;P So here goes...

Don't try pulling me down with you. I've finally escaped my cage--I'm getting to test my wings. You say that you're ready too but you've got weights tying your hands behind your back. You haven't left your prison behind. There's only so much that I can do to help you get out of it, but I can't be your crutch. I think that it's time for you to figure it out on your own. If I help you break out of your shell, you won't be strong enough to survive. So let me go now or I'll leave. You're holding me back, clipping my wings like you are. I can't wait for you...this is my time to fly. If I don't go now, my opportunity might disappear. So I'm gonna get while the gettin's good...you're welcome to come along at any time, but make sure that you are ready...REALLY ready. If you try to take off too soon, you're only going to fall and I can't do anything about that. My feathers are not for you to pluck. I'm outta here.

Okey-dokey...my next one:

I'm on a journey. My goal: the horizon of the rising sun. It's a long path to take, and I'm just beginning. I'm not nearly there, but already I grow weary. I do not have the strength to make it on my own. I rest on tree branches more than I should. Some days I go far, but some not at all. I guess it's because I'm still le+arning to fly. And I want this so bad, so why don't I try? I don't put in enough and thus don't go far. So, Lord, please send a breeze to give me a lift when my strengths fail and weakness takes over. Eventually I'll make it...there's no way I can't. But I need Your help all the same.

Alrighty...this next one I like a whole, whole lot...don't know if you guys feel the same, but I'm not writing for you anyways, now am I? :P

I'm racing along at a million miles an hour. There's no turning back now. Even if I could stop right now, I don't think I would. This wind in my face as I go along is like a sweet perfume that intoxicates my soul. My heart beats so hard I wonder if it'll burst. My mind is spinning but one thing is clear. I've got my wings...these feathers that I have worked so hard for...this freedom that I have dreamed of for so long is finally mine. I can see the edge of the cliff ahead. it's time to test these things to see if I'll fly. It's coming soon...I'm choked with fear but I'll keep going. Will I fly? Will I fall? And I jump.

Last one. This one is totally dedicated to the Prince that fills and inspires all of my dreams. I wrote this in dedication to His day...this is a thank you to Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, the everlasting weaver of dreams.

You've always been there for me, my Prince, on Your shining white horse. To think You'd fight for me...to think You'd die for me...it astounds me. I can't understand why You look at me. How on earth could You choose someone like me? I'm far from the angel that I want to be. My halo is broken and my wings are glued on. This garment is tattered and I'm a mess. Yet, even so, You look upon me with Your gentle eyes and warm smile. You offer Your hand even though I have nothing to give except this heart that I shattered long ago. And then You do something I could never expect. You take the broken pieces of my heart and lock it away and then give me one that's all brand-new. A heart that can't shatter...a heart that won't break no matter what I try. You take these rags and adorn me in spotless white that no dirt can ever stain. And that's not all. This halo of mine, all cracked and rusted, that ceased to shine long ago is healed and relit by the love that You bestow upon me. You take my paper-mache wings and from my back blooms a genuine pair that allow me to fly upon hope. And all You ask for is my undying love that is so small and so easy for me to give. And those shattered pieces of my old heart You keep tucked away in Your own...as a reminder, You say, for the coming day when You will take me Home.


Alrighty that's all! yay for me! I wrote more! I got up off my lazy butt and actually wrote! Bwahahahaha! More stuff for me to read at Cafe Caramel! Yar! And now I'm outta here! (Reviews are welcome! ;P)

Sahara-the-Once-Magnificent-And-Still-Glorious

Current Mood: satisfied
Sunday, March 20th, 2005
2:07 am
Amazing...I'm on a role here..
Another piece of freewriting. :) This one's better than yesterday's I think. In my opinion anyways. :D

One night falls and another morning rises to find me still here; a new thought comes to mind, a new hope is born, and a new me hatches from the egg that seems to have encased me for so long; the fog has finally cleared and now I see what I’ve always known was there; I thought I needed you to help me fly, but I can soar on my own with my own pair of wings; I thought that you would BE my wings; how wrong I was; I haven’t been falling after all; it seems I’m still here in the nest; I haven’t even jumped yet; I’ve woken up from this dream…this bittersweet nightmare…that might come back to haunt me at any time; but this time I’m ready for it, with an awareness that I don’t need you; I never needed you at all, but I was blind to that; so now I know for sure, and I’m going to take off on my own; not alone, mind you, for there will be One with me, the One who was always there; I shall soar to the greatest heights; you’re welcome to join me…if you dare.

Current Mood: determined
Saturday, March 19th, 2005
1:10 am
And more...
I'm not sure what I think about this one honestly. I've been trying to write more often...but this one feels a little bit forced, if you know what I mean. (Not in a bad way...it's just not flowing the way I usually like it to.) But, I wrote it anyways...and here it is for the posting. :)

I look into the mirror and what do I see? In the glass, there is a void where I should have been. It seems that I have been reduced to nothingness. Was I ever anything more than that before? It seems that I’ve been wandering this world like a ghost…I’m an empty shell…there is only a vacancy…a vortex that sucks me in, rendering me helpless. I am chained to this life with no hopes of escape. No matter where I search, nothing seems to be able to fill this pathetic void. And in my brokenness, when I have surrendered myself to the fates, mercy is bestowed upon me. Like a shining light, He comes before me and holds out His hand. Not reluctantly, I take his offer, and moments later the chains disappear…my prison dissolves before my very eyes. A warmth radiates from within me…comforting me. And I step up to the mirror one last time. As I look, the glass’s reflection surprises me. For it is not I who stands before me…my shell is there, but it is not me. This empty husk has been filled with the light of my Savior, light too bright for me to hold in…glorious light so bright that He is seen instead of me.

Current Mood: hopeful
Friday, March 18th, 2005
1:18 am
A little more freewriting.
Bitterness fills me as I think upon it. A dark void within me threatening to consume me, boiling beneath the surface, waiting for the opportune moment. I can feel it rising within…surging…morphing me into an ugly beast. I cling on to salvation…it seems to be the only thing that can save me now. But I’m still healing. The wounds are still here. I can’t seem to stop scratching at them. And it all wells up inside of me…I want to scream. You can’t see it can you? I’ve covered it well it seems, but my mask is beginning to crack, and one day I’ll explode. Everything will pour out…the bitterness will run like blood until I’m purged of it. And now all I ask is that you be there for me. Don’t leave my side, even if you don’t understand. My wings might be crushed, but time heals all things, no matter how painful. I just need you there to ease the pain…to hold my hand until this black tide subsides.

Current Mood: bitter
Sunday, March 13th, 2005
11:43 pm
Long time no see...again. ^^;
Well, hello-hello-hello...haven't been here in awhile now have I? Well, I was good over Spring Break, and actually did a little writing, so that's what I'm posting now. :) Here goes...

I am hollow, in a sense...I lack direction...I don't know where I'm going; I don't even know where I am. Did I ever? I'm a leaf floating along aimlessly down some nameless stream allowing the currents to take me which ever way the wind blows. I often feel helpless and fearfully wait for a current to pull me under...for a wave to consume me...for a waterfall that will toss and submerge me into some watery oblivion. Yet, even beneath these horrors that threaten to crush me, there is hope. For even though I have no direction, I am not lost. I may not know where I'm going, but I know where I'll end up. And even if I am pulled under, there will always be a shore for me to eventually rest upon. For now though, I can trust that this water will hold me up and that eventually I will be swept down the path that I am meant to travel--a path where I will be able to stand on my own two feet until once again I am either carried away by a gust of wind or another current of water. All winds eventually die...all rapids fade...and that is when I will be laid to rest, floating into the horizon. So, knowing that, I think I will try to sit back and enjoy this ride that is my life.


This next one's in poem format:

You say it doesn't matter
You say that you don't care
You say you aren't that shallow
You wouldn't even dare

Your act of piety
Isn't working very well
Your turning head, your flashing grin
And eyes tell the tale

Don't look so surprised
Don't put on your act
It takes one to know one
A shame but a fact


And back to freewriting...

I dream lots of things lots of crazy things improbably impossible implausible things these dreams that fill my mind inspring creations that only I can bring to life that only I can save for I am hero o'er these lands whose roads these pages pave put there by my pen that is my dragon-slaying sword that I wield and deal like a deck of cards made of forty-eight plus four queens to move as I please across the board to trap a king who sings like a lark with wings of fire that outshine the sun that runs better than any clock even a clock worth more than a ton of gold that could make men rich as rich as the witch who cursed it just like the princess she placed under a spell so that she fell down a wishing well where she wished to be saved from the dragon that craved to eat her and so waited above where knights came in answer to her call of distress brave men that would soon be laid to rest for none of them were the best which is I for I hold the pen, the magical sword that saves the worlds creates the worlds that pour from the jumbled mess that is my mind muddled by the things that fill my dreams and the crazy things I dream are many.

And finally...


They say that opposites attract black to white up to down east to west and so on but we're not JUST opposites for at the same time we are very much alike I may be apples and you may be oranges but we are both fruit so here I am dreaming one thing thinking this is what it'll be like THIS is how it'll turn out and I've been dreaming this way for SO LONG but then it dawns on me that you don't see it this way in fact you see it in QUITE a different light one that I'm not sure I like and now I wonder whether I really want this at all because it's going to be completely different from what I expected yet I know that it will be the same way for you and as much as I don't like your point of view I still want this to happen because we're not just going to attract like magnets we're going to mix and mingle like black and white paints do when they become grey and I think we are both curious to know what shade of grey is between us.

Alrighty...that's all I've written...crazy stuff perhaps...I dunno. Leave comments if you like. If you don't want to, don't. But I'm going to bed. :P

Sahara-the-Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: exhausted
Tuesday, February 15th, 2005
12:36 am
A wonderful Valentine's Day. ^_____^
Ah, and indeed, that's exactly what it's been...I've had a GREAT Valentine's Day...which we have officially renamed "Single's Awareness Day" btw. But, yeah, after classes, me and my group of pals went to IHOP, and we were all dressed up and stuff. And I got to eat breakfast for a latenight snack, and I got pancakes with strawberries on top! :) And it was so much fun. Wonder if I impressed any guys! :P j/k! Anyhoo...it was so much fun...we had a lot of laughs and stuff...and then afterwards we came back and hung out in the dorm a bit. And Nathan, my friend, was playing on the piano. Oh my goodness, can that boy play!!! I was in absolute awe! I mean...I've played piano forever, but I can't say that I've played like THAT before. I'm inspired to pick up playing again. :) And more on the classical stuff. But yeah, I'm gonna start making him play for me once in awhile, and I need to look up some songs for him to play. But he was so awesome! I really wanna hear him play again! But yeah, my day has so been made. It's been a great Valentine's Day. ^_^
Anyhoo, it's late, as usual, and I'm off to bed!
Night!
Sahara-The-Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: touched
Sunday, February 13th, 2005
11:36 pm
Me and my morbid sense of humor. -.-;
Oh, yes, I think that me and my sense of humor got me into trouble today...not REALLY trouble...but I think I scared some of my friends today. XD But it was soo funny! And I couldn't stop laughing.
See, we were at Dairy Queen, and two of the guys got the Moolatte things, which are basically like Frappachino's...they mainly consist of ice. Both of the guys kinda made a comment about how he didn't like finding chunks of ice when he took a slurp/bite. Well, one of them goes off on that, and says "I wonder what would happen if I went and asked for one of these things without ice." And then he goes on, narrating this image of the poor waiter holding the cup in one hand and the ice in the other, trying to figure it out. "Moolatte...but without ice...Moolatte...ice...Moolatte...ice..." and finally the guy just drives himself nuts, jumps out of the window and gets hit by a car coming through the drive-thru.
Well, I completely cracked up. I thought it was ABSOLUTELY hilarious...of course I've been raised in a family where we think LOTS of things are funny--gross humor, morbid humor, etc. But, yeah, I couldn't stop laughing...I was probably laughing for 5 minutes straight...and Ryan was like "Okay, Sarah, it's not funny anymore." but I couldn't stop laughing! And every once in awhile I'd think about it and start laughing again. XD But, yes, I hope I didn't weird them out too much. Maybe they'll think I just had too much sugar, which I probably did. ;P
Anyways...yeah...it's late, and I'm going to bed. :)
Later!
Sahara-The-Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: crazy
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
10:40 pm
Boys are stupid! >.
That's right! You heard what I said! Boys...are...STUPID!!! GRAR!!! *roars in frustration* Why are they...why are they...WHY ARE THEY THE WAY THEY ARE?! Are looks all that matter to them? Huh?! And what's up with all of the 'don't-date-any-of-your-friends' junk?! Do they just want some shallow girl who's cute? Don't they want to be able to have a half-way decent conversation with their girlfriend? Is it not okay for them to be friends AND more than friends?! 'cause isn't that the best way to go? So that when something happens you can actually talk to each other civilly about it?! I'm not saying that I am against them wanting a cute girl...'cause yes, even I think it would be nice to have a boyfriend that's kinda good-looking...but I don't JUST want to hold hands and do boyfriend-girlfriend things! I want to feel okay about being myself around them...I want a RELATIONSHIP...a BOND. But how can there be a bond if you're not friends at least a little bit?! -.-; I am P.O.ed...and I'm tired of not knowing anything. So I will do what it takes to find out what I need to know. (Or at least, I would like to think that I will...might not happen...but it might. ;P) But yeah...I mean...I'm totally in agreement with the E-Bunny...do they not see us as girls? Maybe just a little bit? Maybe ONE of them might think that there's something good about me? (And this isn't just about me! What about my pals?) But, yeah, I'm done ranting and raving. Sorry for those who read this, thinking they'd hear about something other than boys. -.-; But, yeah, I'm done. So, I should be in a better mood tomorrow. Hopefully. But I'm thinking it's time to hit the road...it's war peeps! Over and out!
Sahara-The-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: pissed off
Sunday, February 6th, 2005
12:23 am
What a night. O.O
I had an absolutely awesome night tonight. :) Once again, stayed up later than I should have (not as late as last night though), and once again didn't do my homework like I should've--but it was so worth it! ^_^ I love all of my friends so much...I always feel happy when I'm around them and actually taking part, like tonight. I felt like I talked a whole lot more...like I got more involved or something...and it was absolutely awesome. We played this hilarious game called "Zoom-Ack"...it was 'violent' but so much fun. :D I want to do it again! And it was really funny when Ryan fell asleep...couldn't tell if he was actually asleep or not...but I think he was at least for a couple of minutes. I tore off a strip of newspaper and tried to tickle his ear...tried to get him to slap at himself...XD...didn't work very well...he only reacted once...guess that might've been flirting. O.o; But it was fun all the same. :) Wish every night could be that way...wish I never had homework...that none of us had homework...or classes...so we could just have fun all the time. :)
I also got to read some of my free-writing/poetry at a coffee house today. And I got coplimented! I was really surprised about that...and it made me happy of course! I just didn't expect it. ^^; I'm defintely gonna read again next time. :)
Well, I'm gonna go on to bed. Night ya'll!
Sahara-The-Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: ecstatic
Friday, February 4th, 2005
11:17 pm
Oh my goodness...XD
There is this site that, thanks to some friends, I have been shown...for animal lovers, you may hate it...I love animals too, but I can't help loving this...it's absolutely hilarious. To see the mishap of a poor kitty, go here:
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/kittyfan.php
It is sooooo hilarious. Poor kitty! >O.O<
I certainly hope that the cat did not die. ;_; Then it wouldn't be funny...actually, yeah it would...but it would be a lot sadder in the end. ;_;
But, yeah, I loved it. It made me laugh a lot. XD




Anyways...on a darker note...if you can call it that...(XD)...apparently there is some...what's the word...struggle? no...anxiety? maybe...who cares anyways....anyhoo...there seems to be some anxiety among the guys of our group at MTSU. Ever since two of our friends hooked up...(whether they choose to admit it or not)...the guy's've been talking...so have the girls of course. ^^; (And not bad things! I promise! So don't worry! We really do love you guys! ^_^) But yeah...with the way things are going...I wonder if there's any chance that I'll be able to get the attention I want from the guy I want. I mean...I have no clue as to whether he likes me or not anyways...but I now wonder if he'd even ever consider it. I wonder if ANY guy would ever consider it. ;_; *sigh* anyways...'nuff said. it's late, and i'm going to bed! good night yall! ;P

Sahara-The-Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: worried
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
11:30 pm
Confusion...O.o;
I'm not sure what I want to think anymore. Sometimes I'm absolutely positive, and other times I feel numb. My mind wanders and I can't stop it, but I can't speak aloud 'cause I don't want people to misunderstand. You were right Ebony...I really am like a grasshopper, just jumping from one thing to the next. I can't seem to stand still...I've been hopping back to the same spot again and again though...but most of the time, it feels like I've jumped into empty space...once in awhile though...it's like I've jumped into a bed of feathers...and at those moments, the confusion is gone. But when I'm left hanging...I dunno. Maybe it's just my lack of self-confidence. GRAR! And it's so irritating! And I know that I'm still young...and that there's really nothing wrong with continuously changing my mind, 'cause it's not hurting anyone. But it's still very irritating! Argh! -.-; We need to talk sometime soon Ebony. Not sure if you read my post to you or not...but I deleted it, 'cause I'm still flip-flopping. I hate doing this, but, eh, what more can I do or say? We need to talk, girl!
Later!
Sahara-The-Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious!

Current Mood: confused
Monday, January 24th, 2005
9:35 pm
Something to consider. ^_^
Yeah, I got this forward in my inbox, and I know that everybody's probably gotten it, but I'd like to post it anyways, 'cause it certainly makes ME think. ;P

In light of the many perversions and jokes we send to one another for
a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a
joke, it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.




Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane
Clayson asked her "How could God let something like this happen?"
(regarding the attacks on Sept. 11).




Anne Graham gave an extremely profound and insightful response. She
said "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but
for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out
of our government and to get out of our lives.




And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How
can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we
demand He leave us alone?"




In light of recent events...terrorists attack, school shootings, etc.
I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her
body found recently) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools,
and we said OK.




Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school the Bible
says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor
as yourself. And we said OK.




Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they
misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we
might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We
said an expert should know what he's talking about. And we said OK.




Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no conscience, why
they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to
kill strangers, their classmates, and themselves.




Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it
out. I think it has a great deal to do with "WE REAP WHAT WE SOW."




Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the
world's going to hell. Funny how we believe what the newspapers say,
but question what the Bible says.




Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like
wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord,
people think twice about sharing.




Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freely through
cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school
and workplace.




Are you laughing?

Current Mood: contemplative
Sunday, January 23rd, 2005
10:43 pm
Laughter: The Ultimate Cure
Oh my goodness...I feel like...like...I'm floating on air. I wonder if this is what drug-users feel like when they get a high. *evil laughter* (And no, in case you couldn't tell, I don't use drugs. That's a BAD thing to do.) But yeah, I just got back from watching the movie "Anchorman" a little while ago. That movie is absolutely HILARIOUS!!! There was quite a bit of icky stuff that I would have cut out...but I turned my eyes and missed the worst of it I think. But, oh my goodness, it was so so so so funny! I now have a new favorite quote: "I'm in a glass case of emotion!" It was so so so funny! And I feel like nothing can upset me for the rest of the night! :D Laughter really, honest-to-goodness, is the ultimate cure-all. :) Whoo...well, yeah, I don't feel like typing anything else tonight. So good night all! Go find something to make you laugh until you cry...I promise, you'll feel great afterwards. XD
Sahara-The-Glorious-And-Once-Magnificent

Current Mood: high
Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
9:48 am
^_^
Well, I haven't posted any freewriting for awhile...and I just wrote this one today. So, here goes:

Shut up and listen to me. The grasshopper and the rabbit are playing three-way chess. It takes two checkmates to win. So what happens when two queens trap a king? It's gonna be stalemate now and that won't do 'cause nobody's ready to lose yet. The game must go on so it's time to step back and let the king out of the trap. A sacrifice must be made and an alliance preserved. The king might escape but that doen't mean game over. It's just time to turn the tables and throw away the board. Sketch up a new plan. Just gonna try again. Keep switiching up. Not gonna give up. The opportunity is still there. Patience is the name of the game. So wait it out utnil it's a checkmate where everybody wins.

Alrighty, that's it for now. :)
Sahara the Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: peaceful
Monday, January 17th, 2005
10:03 pm
Long time no see. O.o;
Hello, it's me, Sahara the Glorious. :) I haven't posted in awhile have I? Not a whole, whole lot to say really. Back from break. Glad to be back, but I got used to being at home. So, I've gotta get used to being away from home again. ;_; I think I'm slightly homesick, but nothing bad...and being super tired just kind of magnifies everything. But yeah, this semester I have eight o'clock classes EVERY DAY. Yuck! Not looking forward to it. :( Hopefully, I'll get used to it really quickly. But it's definitely gonna be earlier bedtimes for me. And that's why i'm going to bed in a few minutes. ;P I'm tired anyways...so hopefully I won't have TOO much trouble falling asleep. :) But, yes, now I feel like being gloomy for a few moments, so if you read below, it's at your own risk. So I warned ya. There.


And of course...this is about the guy I like. ^^; Haven't told him yet...and I'm really wanting to...but I kind of want to know if there's ANY CHANCE of him liking me. 'cause I don't know...at all. In fact, I want to say no...but it's not because he's showing that he DOESN'T like me or anything like that. It's just that if he DOES show it without making it unbelievably obvious (like unbelievably obvious to the point where I just CAN'T miss it, 'cause I'm a doofus when it comes to this stuff)...then I'm not gonna catch it. But I can't help wondering if he likes somebody else, or if he's not interested in getting to relationship stuff period. o.o; So now my question is...should I go ahead and tell him? Should I just ask him if he likes me? Should I ask my friends to ask him for me? Should I wait a little while and hope that he figures it out? Should I not tell him at all? O.o; But yeah...anyways...that's enough for me. I did my ranting...and if you read it, lovely...if you want to make a comment, I really don't mind. Advice is always welcome. But yeah...anyhoo...


I have to get up at 8 in the morning. Yuck, yuck, yuckyuckyuck!!! I don't wanna get up so early!! It's gonna be an ugly wake-up call for me tomorrow! *cries* j/k Anyways...I had a great Christmas and New Year's. I had a great break...got to see my friends and family and had a great time. And now I will go to sleep so I can soon become my normal happy self. Bwahahahahahaha! Later!

Sahara the Once-Magnificent-And-Now-Glorious

Current Mood: confused
Friday, December 24th, 2004
5:42 pm
Quizzie


You Are a Dreaming Soul





Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult

You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.

Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul





Christmas is almost here! Have a great Christmas everyone! ^_^
Sahara the Glorious
(I am no longer JUST the magnificent...I have promoted myself! XD)

Current Mood: excited
Friday, December 17th, 2004
2:17 pm
Home At Last!!! :)
Yay! I'm home! Whoot! Haven't been here in...three weeks I guess. But now I get to be here for a month. :) It's gonna be kinda weird though, I think. Gotta go back to not being able to do whatever I want whenever I want. And all of my MTSU friends are gone! ;_; Hopefully we'll get to see each other during the break at least once though. :) Christmas is only 8 days away!!!! *squeal* Count down! Count down! Whoo-hoo! Whoo-hoo! Cantwaitcantwaitcantwait!!!!! It's kind of sad not being able to see the gang though. ;_; I miss you guys already! Ah well...before you know it, we'll be back at school again. So enjoy the break while you can, right? :) Anyhoo...hope everybody got back home safe and sound. And Ebony, whenever you go, get there safely. Don't be too bored at school! ;P Well, not much else to say, guess I'll go for now. ;P

I wanna post the lyrics for a song that I like a lot:

I started to ache when I started to think of you.
Wondering how long it would take before I step into something new.
There's only so much I can fake.
There's only so much that I can prove.
Well, do it in a minute,
I could go play the fool for you.

Lights, camera, action.
I think I'm going for it this time.
There's something you should listen to.
Could I take you for a car ride?
This is the soundtrack for our movie.
Would you tell me when we get to the best part?
I'll play it for you.
Oh no, I think I've lost this one.
Can we try again?

Well I'm a wreck.
I really can't explain it but I,
I hear the music when I look at you.
Orchestrating the song to accommodate the moment.
Well, I'm so in love with you.

Are you looking for an answer?
Because I could really use a friend tonight.
We can make this last forever.
We don't have to fear the sunlight.

I'll take a chance and steal away this movie moment.

I'm in deep whenever I'm with you.
I'm directing the scene that has you and me forever.
We'll I'm so in love with you...
- "Soundtrack for Our Movie" by Mae

Anyways...I'm outta here. Enjoy your break guys!
Sahara the Magnificento

Current Mood: happy
Tuesday, December 14th, 2004
8:03 pm
Heyheyhey! O.O
Was it just me or was SOMEBODY being a HUGE flirt today?! Just thought I'd...you know...MENTION it. *wink wink* ;P

Current Mood: mischievous
11:38 am
Quiz thingy that Ebony did. :P
I'm doing this so that I can procrastinate from studying. Bwahahahahahahaha.

I WANT: to be a published author of books and comics!
I HAVE: tons of friends, a wonderful family, and a blessed life in general (except for those two exams that are coming up!)
I REGRET: lots of things. O.o; But they made me who I am, so I don't regret them too much. :)
I WISH: that I could grow wings and fly! :)
I LOVE: God and Jesus, family and friends.
I HATE: the Devil, people who make fun of others (in a bad way), pineapples, and coconuts.
I MISS: Christa!!! ;_; I wanna see you soon! (We have to get together over Christmas Break definitely!) And my family!!! And I get to see them for a whole month! Yay! My dog! And the peeps at home. :) And my room. And I could go on and on...;P
I FEAR: pain (both physical and emotional)...needles, bees, and most sharp things in general (except maybe knives and swords, 'cause they're just plain cool)...and the idea of being alone...and the idea of everybody hating me...and the thought that I might never get kissed or never have a boyfriend before I die! ;_; (hehehehe...that one actually sounds kinda funny right now. XD)

LAST TIME YOU...
SMILED: I'm smiling right now....
CRIED: Um...hmm....a few weeks ago. Unless you count when I was laughing so hard last night that I started crying.
BOUGHT SOMETHING: Does dinner count? If not, over Thanksgiving Break. :)
KISSED SOMEONE: Um...well...um...if you count family...then a few weeks ago...but otherwise...NEVER. Bwahahahaahahahahaha!!!!
HAD A DREAM: I think I had one last night, but I can't remember it. O.o;
LAST THING YOU READ: Dean Koontz's 'Seize the Night'. But I'm reading Gibson's 'Neuromancer' right now for English. :)
LAST PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: My mom's cell phone.
LAST SONG YOU HEARD: "Kitty, Kitty, My!" by Orange Range.
YOU ATE: Two pieces of pizza. :)

DO YOU...
SMOKE? no way! ick. yuck. phooie. not happening. ;P
DO DRUGS? NO. That's even worse. -.-;
HAVE A CRUSH? Um..............well........er......YEAH, DUH. Bwahahahahahahaha!
HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND? Nope, and never ever ever ever ever had one!!! Unless you count kindergarden! XD
HAVE A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK? Yesh. Different scenerio every time, but same theme: Tornadoes chasing me. :) (Which is honestly pretty cool, in my opinion. ;P)
REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE? Um...yeah.
HAVE ANY GAY BISEXUAL OR LESBIAN FRIENDS? Yes.
BELIEVE IN MIRACLES? definitely
BELIEVE IT'S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER? absolutely postivelutely!
BELIEVE IN God? YUP!
HAVE ANY SECRETS? yesh
HAVE ANY PETS? yes! My cute little beagle, Teddy!
GO TO UNIVERSITY? Uh-huh! MTSU! Go raiders!
PIERCINGS? Yeah, one piercing on each ear. I don't have any weird piercings. :P
HAVE ANY TATTOOS? nope
HAVE A 'BEST' FRIEND? yes
CARE ABOUT LOOKS? I would like to say that I don't, but I do to an extent. I don't wear makeup or anything, but I try to look halfway decent. XD
TRUST OTHERS EASILY? I kind of flip-flop from person to person...some people I trust to easily (and they probably deserve that trust)...but then there are the people that I don't trust enough. ;P

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. jeans
2. t-shirt
3. purple coat

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1. computer
2. candy
3. cell phone

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. get published (in books and comics)
2. see a tornado!
3. get kissed. ;P

THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1. optimistic
2. dreamer/idealistic
3. passionate

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1. I don't talk enough! O.O
2. Too idealistic sometimes...i guess blind, perhaps...there are times when I just can't understand why a person thinks the way they do...but i'm usually pretty accepting--it just takes a while. ;P
3. I'm stubborn. (It can be a good thing, but it can also be a very bad thing. ;P)

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. My hair.
2. My eyes. (I have mostly green eyes! I always thought that was cool since it's less common on a brunette and 'cause green is cool. And it's also cool 'cause nobody can technically pinch me on St. Patrick's day. ;P And the coolest thing is, is that my eyes aren't JUST green. I have tri-colored eyes: golden-brown on the inside, green in the middle, and bluish on the outside. Rainbow eyes! Whoot!)
3. My height. I always wanted to be tall. ;P

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. Too many things to say (not really)...but I'll say one thing: I hate it when I get a pimple on my face. XD

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1. um...o.o;...well, at MTSU, i don't think many people know that I draw. :)
2. i'm NOT proper...fart jokes and burp jokes are a big part of mine and my family's humor. XD
3. i have discovered a portal to other worlds and am in the process of creating others. ;P

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. that's mean! (i'm usually kidding around when i say it though)
2. quit! (whenever my brother picks on me)
3. what's that mean? or who's that? (referring to music and stuff)

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1. JAPAN!!!
2. Germany
3. Australia

THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY
1. Sarah
2. Sahara
3. Amerigo Vespucci-o!

THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD
1. SEB7706
2. SailorJ524
3. CastellaStar

THREE DRINKS I LIKE
1. Sodas: especially cherry coke and dr. pepper.
2. special grape juice: welch's grape juice mixed with gingerale.
3. kool-aid. :)

Current Mood: giddy
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